Phone call with Lady Surrender Report!
This is an account of my 2nd phone call with Lady Surrender. Before I begin I would like to just give a bit of background about myself. i am submisisve m and i have been involved with mental domination for a number of years. More than a decade now. I have listened to a numerous amount of files and have enjoyed them all to varying degrees. I use trance as a way to find out something about myself. How deep can i truly go? I don’t know, and I want to. Every file I listen to, every session I trance to… I try to find an answer to that question.
I started speaking to Lady Surrender a little more than a month ago. It’s been a short span of time but I have greatly enjoyed her work and our conversations. Her mantra files have become sessions I listen to often just because they are so enjoyable. When I was able to I did a phone session with Lady Surrender as soon as I could. mp3 files are very enjoyable… but live calls are really much more intimate and intense. Here is what I remember from my call. Maybe this will interest some of you into trying a call soon as well.
My Skype call started out horribly. Couldn’t get Skype to work. If a Dominant tells you to call her and you are late fumbling with a phone… that could be a bad start. Not for Lady Surrender. We ended up making a small joke about it and she kept going like nothing happened. I was so happy about that. She is so easy to talk to.
After a bit of conversation, we got ready for the trance session. I closed my eyes and laid in bed. Now I am going to say something that may get you thinking “this guy is pretending” … “he’s playing around..” when in fact i am not. At least 35 minutes of this induction I have no memory of it happening. I may be fuzzy on the time. I know I heard Lady Surrender ask me to close my eyes. I’m thinking back to the beginning of the call. I remember coming out of trance. That’s it. No memory. This amazes me. I have listened to trance with amnesia triggers quite often. Inevitably even when told to not remember…. i still remember parts of the trances. With Lady Surrender… I truly do not. It thrilled me that i was speaking with someone who could exhibit this type of control. In recordings it feels sometimes like I am pretending to make the amnesia work. With Lady Surrender … no it isn’t pretending… i love the fact she can to with my mind so easily.
After the induction we talked for a bit more. Then with just a word she drops me right back into trance. Then brings me back up. We talk a bit more. She drops me again, then brings me back up. I have to say every time I get brought back up… i feel… literally feel like i am a toy. I felt powerless. Then aroused. REALLY AROUSED. I was given triggers. I am not sure when they were given. I didn’t need to think about that. My brain heard the words and my body just reacted. No thinking on my part at all. I was too wrapped up in Her words to apply logic to this. One set of triggers aroused me and made me dizzy with desire for my Lady. Another set of triggers has me orgasming while calling out her name. I am not even going to type the triggers out because Lady surrender has already proven her triggers work on me even in text… oh my word i love Her control.
Except… sometimes i need to beg Her for mercy.
Imagine orgasm after orgasm after orgasm until you feel drained… and then pushed past… She teased me. Over. And Over. And Over Again. Multiple orgasms. Enough that i felt drained in the process. I sincerely begged her to stop and she did… bringing me under and then back up. I cannot think of a recording that i was able to feel this type of interactivity. Something this intense… i believe it can really only happen on a live call. The arousal I had came from the fact that my mind was so thoroughly controlled… so erotically controlled… it left me a puddle afterwards. Nothing left.
I remember we talked a bit more after she calmed me down. Somewhere in the conversation she teased that she was going to use a trigger. She didn’t say one… she just teased it was coming… and then there was this pause. This long pause that lasted for eons. My mind was working overtime trying to figure out what she was going to say. My body was starting to react like she had already said a trigger because I was triggering myself in my mind going through all the triggers i know could come. Lady surrender actually had to bring me out of trance again. Either because i triggered myself, or she triggered me and had me forget…
She can control me by just teasing a trigger word. Wow… i may be in trouble, lol.
I think it was around here where I was given a trigger to begin speaking like a baby. An actual baby, yes. Have to admit, I found it so freeing. Strange thing was I could still think as myself, but every word came out as gibberish gaga bobo ojhowjo2uey and other non words. No matter what I thought, it came out as baby speak until she triggered me out of it. Then she slipped the trigger right into a conversation and immediately i begin speaking baby even as my mind was trying to finish our conversation. haha. After a bit i admit i felt rather babyish inside and out… and it felt wonderful. When you are able to be this free with someone you trust… so many doors are opened. It felt that way to me.
Here is where things get a bit tricky for me, please bear with me.
After a bit more conversation, I was brought under again, and then told to forget the entire conversation. I remember at the time I was brought back up and Lady Surrender was still speaking to me. She was addressing me and asking if I remember anything about the last hour? I told her I remember when I called her on Skype. Here is where it gets fuzzy. In my mind, I was trying to figure out how could I be missing an hour of our talk. I know i had been forgetful of late, but it couldn’t have been that bad. Then I remember how tired I was and thought perhaps I slept the entire trance and just work up. Any thoughts I had about the conversation… felt like trying to hold on to water. The thoughts were too slippery. I didn’t even remember I was talking like a baby just moments ago. Another way to describe this is like someone putting on the wrong prescription glasses. With the right prescription glasses, everything in front of you is vivid and clear. With the wrong prescription everything is fuzzy, you can just make out shapes of things. That’s how it felt. When I thought about the conversation it was just nothing but shapes.. haziness… I wasn’t sure what happened during our conversation at all.
I was again brought back into trance and then told that I would now remember our conversation and even recall forgetting things at her whim. Although… i still cannot remember the first part of the call. I remember most things after. Including arousal triggers still working very very well. lol. I know there are others things I have forgotten, but I love the fact that Lady Surrender is able to play with my mind to this degree.
I accuse myself a lot for having high expectations as to what erotic trance can do. Time and again my expectations were never truly met. They were kind of.. if I pretended until it felt real. Maybe that’s how everyone starts learning how to trance. Pretending it works until it does. with Lady Surrender, there is no pretending… her control just works. She somehow in just a few conversations found out what really excited me about erotic trance… what made me tick as a submisisve… and then blew all of my expectations away. Completely. I feel like I have been in training trancing these past 10+ years just so I can truly enjoy how special an experience with Lady Surrender is.
I urge anyone who is interested in erotic trance in it’s purest form, to try a mp3 or a live call with Lady Surrender. She will take the time to understand who you are… then use all of that info to leave you a quivering mess at her feet. Just as it should be.
your submissive m